Officially told my master I'm not grading in Dec yesterday. Felt good. I told him I simply wasn't worthy of it. I don't train enough and am not committed enough to wear a black belt. All other colours I can maybe get over, but I need to feel like I deserve my black belt.

Back tracking a bit, I did referring for the tournament! I was all official like and was told I did a really good job throughout. It was hard work, a lot of concentration is needed. I know fighting is hard too, but at least they only have so many matches. Referring goes on the whole day. I didn't really get a break (sans when everyone went to lunch). Really fighting is harder, but I just wanted some buttpets, haha.

There were some really good, intense fights, like the heavyweights. Insane watching their power. There were also some disrespectful fighters from other schools. Shame I wasn't first ref for their match, I would have given them a hard time. Despite this, they won medals. Pretty much everyone bar one or two won medals. Without sounding harsh, it's a bit like they were given out like candy. But at least those guys took part, haha.

I took the junior class yesterday. So far I've only done warm up, stretches, a wee bit of drill work with kiddies, so that was interesting. It went pretty well. The senior class was a little intense since I've become fat, unfit and lazy, but not overly so. I still kept up so I'm not completely lost, hehe.

Onwards to another lesson tonight.