Last two training sessions were polar opposites. To sum it up, Monday's one hour kiddy class was awesome. Yesterday's adult class was not.

Things I learnt:
-I am bad at being in large classes with black belts because they make me feel crap and I lose any form of self-confidence.
-I can't spin well, it makes me so damn dizzy.
-Started dropping my damn guard again. Constantly getting kicked/punched in the face. UGH.
-I get horribly jealous if a female white belt is told they have 'spirit'. Especially when I'm being punched everywhere.
-Maaaay have the tendency to get incredibly pissed off when fighting if this situation occurs: you back away from your opponent (either for tactical reasons, or because you're being pressured), and someone steps behind you from another pair by accident. Obviously this distracts you as you bump into them/they bump into you. When you turn to look at them/get out of their way, you GET PUNCHED IN THE FACE/KICKED. FUCK YOU, THAT'S UNFAIR PLAY, YOU ASSHOLE. Wait for us both to reset instead of jumping someone. What, can't you win otherwise!?
Getting angry just remembering, because it kept happening with this damn guy I was fighting! He makes me angry easily.
-Patterns are improving. At least this time I got through my pattern without going "uh... which pattern am I doing?" half way through. Eheee.

Basically, lots to improve on. I'm going through a LOT of changes in my personal life atm, so maybe I just got stressed out, maybe not. But I spent this afternoon at work practicing my spins and my back/side kicks so I can improve for class.

I'm going to become the best at using the things I am shittest at. I will jump and spin, goddamnit!

That's pretty much it. I'm tired so this isn't the best entry, but not even mad. Goodnight, internet.