So already I'm going back to my old ways at training. Everything and everyone freaks me out, and I don't 'believe in my myself' and then get incredibly frustrated. Think it might be to do with the fact that it'll be my shark week soon. As in today soon, I reckon.

I admitted to my black stripe friend that I have trust issues on Friday. I don't remember how it came up, but I admitted that his praise doesn't concern me because I don't think it's true. Praise may not be a purposeful lie but it certainly isn't wholly truth. That's one of my issues in brief, it's really a topic for another day. He agreed that I had issues, haha. I'm working on them! ...Just a bit slowly.

My pattern [Won Hyo] has sharpened up a bit. Less nervous when executing it in front of people, etc. Found I can't do pull ups at all. Need more upper arm strength HOOHAH.

What IS good, is that I've been practicing back kicks and spinning kicks up and down the aisles where I work, as drills. Usually when people aren't looking. It's really helped and now I feel so much more confident than before. Like I said, my aim of the year is to be the best at the shit that I'm currently the worst at.

I think that's all I want to say today.

Enjoy your everything!