Ah, Monday.

Yesterday squad was cancelled, so instead I killed it at the gym. Seriously killed it. Was knackered all day, and then ended up only sleeping 2 hours at night for certain reasons. Did enjoy it though, closer to doing splits!

Today's training was frustrating to say the least. Master K's messed his shoulder up majorly so he can't take the classes. Master L took it instead, which is fine. The warm up was awesome. At one point we were too slow doing some things, so we had to do 101 sit ups as quickly as we could. I powered through to 50 before he stopped us and explained it was about willingness. I shone because I didn't grumble, I just worked really hard to get to 50 before others got to 23. I was prepared to do all 101. Being such an adrenaline rush with the warm up, I was majorly pumped.

What actually happened was I was used as an instructor, more or less. I was put in command of various things including line work, patterns and reffing point sparring. Whilst none of that bothers me, it helps the class out and is an amazing honour, I got to do no training other than the warm up. FP noticed and said I should tell Master L to stop being lazy and leaving me in charge. FP is quite outspoken when it comes to these matters, he believes grade means nothing if you're taking advantage of someone and stopping their learning. I don't think I can make myself confront Master L in that way. I will continue to help out, and work on the skills that gives me. I get the feeling FP will talk to people on my behalf anyway, jammy git, haha.

I'll wake up tomorrow and it'll all be fine.

I fixed the issue in my personal life. Rather than doing my usual, this one meant enough to me to actually try. It's worked out, and I'm fucking glad. My training will progress even better now.

I guess what I want to say is that we all have set backs, but what sets us apart is breaking through them and not letting them define us. My set backs have defined who I am all my life, and I am strong for it, but I can now no longer gain strength from it, I have to move forward.  Good luck to others doing this too! (: