I am so very. Very. Very fucking tired. Haven't slept properly in about a week. No reason for it, not that I can find anyway. It's taking its toll on me now. I'd attribute it to stress, but I'm always (and as such never?) stressed, so it's not that, I don't think. On top of that, I do a lot of exercise now. I say now. I mean even more exercise now. I do extra running and longer gym sessions. I WILL become great. Maybe.

Classes have been up and down, in general. Some days I can do anything, others, I want to go home within 10 mins. We were taught for one class by that world champ I mentioned a while back, the one I don't particularly like. I started off very interested. Despite not liking the guy, I know he is highly skilled and had the potential to pass on lots of lessons and teachings. He did not. He appears to like the sound of his own voice, is quite arrogant, and not good at teaching. In my opinion, anyway. Still highly skilled, just not at teaching or being humble. Ah well! He's not around much!

Today I was so very tired, I wasn't paying 100% attention. I had to teach Master C Kodang, which was a bit cool. Ramboneses admitted he was jelly. It is a big honour. He got it pretty quickly! I was quite proud of him, haha.

I think my reactions have gotten quicker. I won't know for sure until I fight someone of a higher standard (so far I've fought mainly lower grades for a while), but I'd like to think so. I've been spurring some belts on, too, hoping they'll better themselves. I often neglect my own skills in favour of improving someone else. I keep meaning to stop that, but I end up doing it. Others come above me, apparently.

In the senior class we were pushed. Which is, of course, good. We all need a good pushing. And now. I need to bathe and retire to bed, to see if sleep will allude me again. I don't doubt it will, but I can pretend.

Goodnight, blog.